I love waking up next to you.
Falling asleep next to you is a feeling that can’t compare of waking up next to you. I love being able to wake up from a dream and getting that feeling of trying to recall where I am because I’m still in that trance of the dream. I then see you through my sleepy eyes and you’re laying there still sleeping like the perfect man you are. You mean the world to me and I treasure these moments of waking up next to you because I then get to spend another amazing morning with you. I wish I could do this everyday.
I’m having the worst day/night ever. Why can’t you just drop what you are doing and see that I need you more than anything. I have to accept the fact that your friends are more important than our relationship. You keep pushing me away and pretty soon you’re gonna push me sooo far away that I won’t come back. I show you that I care too much and I give you all my heart and you can’t take that. I see where you stand. And it’s not good. I can’t even bare to think of losing you.. There’s nights where I have to keep preparing myself to accept the fact that you don’t want to be with me the next day or the next week or the next month. You’re killing me inside and you don’t see it. You make me extremely happy and I can’t live without that feeling. But right now and lately it’s been coming down to this moment of knowing that you don’t want me anymore. You don’t compliment me on how I try to look for you when I can spend an hour getting ready and do my makeup. This is what I wasn’t looking forward to in this relationship that I treasure so much. But I’m starting to think we’re at that point or at least you are. And I’m truly sorry that you don’t want this and I hope the best for you.